Tuesday, May 01, 2012

Retribution and Forgiveness :)


The path to retribution has been glorified by many in the past. Lot of these DC and Marvel superheroes started out that way, didn’t they? A common man’s journey to being a superhero. But they are right! To feel wronged for thaaat long, you need to be a superhero. To tread the path of vengeance and continue feeling wronged for extended periods of time needs an unending source of energy, an unquestionable belief in others’ wrongdoings, and unadulterated self-pity without feeling stupid about it. Ordinary mortals like yours truly will feel bad maximum for a day or two and even that is stretching it, and then quickly revere in something less tiring, like say forgetfulness and lethargy. Which is not necessarily bad. Laziness and poor cognitive abilities marring the process of retribution is a good thing. It brings you a different kind of peace.

Every time I think about the reason why I would feel wronged in the first place, the answer that crops up is the same. Self-absorption. This need to be the cynosure of everyone’s eyes. That everyone should behave as if it’s a real treat to have me around. Who the hell do I think I am, eh? Obviously very few will give me that kind of importance and I am gonna feel let down eventually. But see that’s the problem, I understand all this on the cerebral level, but it doesn’t bloody penetrate deeper than that. The default doesn’t let me settle for anything less but to be at the top of everyone’s priority (even if they are not on mine). When someone jumps the queue ahead of me which happens quite frequently, it pisses me off. I rave and rant, neurons firing away to glory, and I come up with several solid impeccable parallel plans to avenge the insult (most of these things by the way happen at night coz that’s when my indolence allows me to wallow in all these luxuries). Usually by the time I am done with planning, I am exhausted, so I tend to sleep over it. And feel utterly useless about my plan the next day. One coz everything seems very trivial and manageable the next morning, but also coz I realise it’ll take some serious effort on my part if I want to continue feeling victimised. Better to call bygones be bygones, eh? It may not sound like an ideal combo, this trio of narcissism, bad memory and laze, but works every time.

Plus, in the end I like myself even more for my amazingly forgiving nature!


28 comments:

Rathchakra said...

you are insufferable - in the truest sense! BTW if it helps, you do rank #1 in priority on more occasions than I would like to admit ;)
Brace yourself for some heavy artillery offline.

A said...

So it takes a blog entry for the truth to come out! Awesome!!! BTW, you should totally sing that song, record it and post it on your blog!!!

Rathchakra said...

What song?

A said...

I don't remember what I was talking about...See this is what I meant...My memory sucks!

Rathchakra said...

Vous souhaitez que c'était vrai!

A said...

Abe oi french mendhak, itni french ni aati...indian mendhak hai, hindi mein baat kar!

A said...

Anyway, why would I wish that man?

Rathchakra said...

think hard 'man'!

A said...

ok 'man'ya :)

Rathchakra said...

un objet de votre obsession, non merci, monsieur!

A said...

The Beauty and the Beast! Or more like The Princess and the Frog! Wo kahaan, tu kahaan...Aukaat mein rahh!!

Rathchakra said...
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Rathchakra said...

Beauty is skin deep! Look inside! the Beast or the Frog over the Beauty or the Princess, ANY DAY!

Rang pe kisne pehere daale roop ko kisne baandha,
kaahe yeh jatan kare?

A said...

It's so apt to be your ringtone :)

Look inside is fine, but that doesn't necessarily mean ugliness comes with depth. Looks and 'insides' are independent!

Rathchakra said...

no "move your body"....plz tell me that's my ringtone ;)

A said...

Johnny Gaddar?! Good choice buddy :)

A said...

Fuck! Really forgot :( I remember now... :)

Rathchakra said...

we will make a great superhero team, our special powers: one's dyslexic the other can't remember shit!
Together they solve world hunger and bring world peace! What do we call this team: The Derangers? The Deranged Duo?

A said...

Yuo cna hvae mroe fnu wtih teh lnaguage bieng a dsylexic! Memory loss is no fun...

I forgot what I was trying to say :P

Rathchakra said...

a collective memory loss is the only way nations will forget their past feuds and move on...so don't discount it!

A said...

Arre bawa :) Control Rattu control!

Rathchakra said...

wohi toh nahi hota! koi ilaaj?

A said...

Just give up, sit back and enjoy! That's the real message of this post.

Rathchakra said...

give up? na! enjoy - always.

A said...

:) Showoff saala!

Rathchakra said...

only the truth, nothing but the whole truth.

Anonymous said...

Loved the post... its like u describing me...

A said...

Thanks anon!