Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I have a repetitive dream these days…

I am standing somewhere with arms outstretched, and eyes closed, feeling the strong breeze, hearing the rustle of wind. I am filling the clean air in my lungs…I can’t see the sky but I am sure it’s a clear blue one…I can’t see where I am but surely somewhere high…I don’t know how I reached here…don’t know where I am standing, but it seems a rocky terrain…

I open my eyes…it’s exactly as it seemed, except that I’m at the very edge of a cliff. I am short of a freaking heart attack cuz of the sheer height…The road backwards is blocked by a dried up tree trunk which does not seem strong enough to take my weight. I look ahead…there are tiers of rocks beneath, the slope is steep and one wrong step somewhere and I would smash my head...

Option 1: I take chances with the tree and learn halfway through that not just that the tree is all dried up, it’s a hollow stump (right!!! Serves me just right)…I crash into the valley along with the dead tree remains… thud, thud THUD!!!

Thankfully, I am not dead yet…since it’s a dream, I get another chance…it’s only fair…I am again on that cliff…again weighing my options…option 1, crossed…not suitable…


Option 2: I take chance with climbing down the slope…I try to remember all the tips they gave us in the mountaineering camp 10 years back…unfortunately, I make a fatal mistake and get to enjoy an unwarranted free fall…thud, thud THUD!!!

No, I’m not dead yet…I get a third chance…

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Unfortunately, the dream ends here. I dangle on the tenterhooks every single time just to see what happens at the end, but I don’t come to an end at all…I writhe and wriggle and try to wangle the ending (all this while asleep) but don’t come to anything conclusive…

Standing on the cliff, thinking of a third option is where it abruptly ends every single time…


PS. Conclusions anyway: I am ready neither to go back nor to come down…which probably means there is only one thing left to do…

Biding time and an opportunity to fly!

6 comments:

Jo said...

Hi a,
Thank you so much for your comment left on my blog. Just had to pop over here to find out more about your dream and strange 'cliff top' experiences.

Can't help wondering if you, like me, have reached a bit of a major decision in life. For some reason you can't go back and you also can't take the easy option and carefully climb down. Do you think you may have to jump in order for you to actually 'fly'? I'm learning that taking that step, even if it feels totally illogical or extremely scary, is often the only way to rise to new heights, to soar above our fears and problems. Any sign of you developing big strong wings in your dream?!!

Priya said...

:) I am tempted to go fetch Freud's Interpretation of dreams.. and understand what this means!

I agree with Jo... and when u do fly... I wud be the happiest!! :)

Jahnavi said...

let go dude. u never know what treasures lie beneath. and like jo says, u might just learn to fly in the process! if u wait, its only time that'll fly by :)

[Psst: what exactly is this abt? Another day dream?]

Anonymous said...

hey bm

next time make sure u are take some ropes, carabiners and harnesses with you when you go to bed. climbing up will be fun, trust me...ahmmm!

bm

A said...

@Jo: Yup, risks are necessary to go ahead in life. Especially if one is trying to do something new...though this dream may not have anything to do with it :)

@Jahnavi: As Priya says, maybe Freud will help! This has been too long to remember, but I guess must be about some uncertainties back then...

A said...

Priya, when I do fly? I am already!

bm, reminds you of your field site, doesn't it?